Routine

 

I can’t cry no more 

My whole eyes have watched what should’ve been 

unfelt un-dealt-with,

Unseen 

My whole eyes have over-watched  

pain and despair and suffering and tears 

Everything in repeat 

My whole eyes have over-watched 

So that my tears dried out-

They made it hard for us 

To mourn 

To grieve 

To leave the house unbothered

To breathe the air they breathe 

To water our soil with love 

With care 

With everything our children need 

 

Not any value given 

To that what our tongue attempted to 

Speak 

It is dignity 

That is lying on the mountain 

I’m trying to climb on 

While yours is down on flatten ground

I’m trying to reach it’s peak 

Justice feels like a mirage In deserts heat 

I’m singing lullabies 

To my babies, but my babies,

You made it hard for them to sleep 

 

My whole words are spoken out 

Your fingers on my vocal cords 

You’ve stolen my voice like a thieve 

Followed your unreasoned fear like sheep 

As you pulled the trigger saying you in danger 

Who are you trying to deceive? 

What are we dying to believe? 

We are just asking for relief

Man, I just can’t breathe- 

Not enough reason for you 

To take your hands off of me  

And to leave

 

Dear officer -

Ain’t no dearness for you to receive. 

Black lives just worthless for you

as you clieve 

Our bodies apart from our souls 

Ain’t no chance for us to grow 

Ain’t no chance for us to be- 

 

Dear world

The colour Blue ain’t no longer 

stands for the sky and the sea 

It’s not us cheating the system 

But you designing it for us to drown deep

A list longer than one could count,

A red coloured ocean 

In 2022

Still you won’t even perceive

Still ain’t no validity seen 

As we mourn upon our beloved brothers and sisters 

 

From Breonna ´til Ahmaud Arbery

I can’t cry no more because 

Your killing 

It is routine.